For those of you that don’t know, my amazing husband and I are expecting another child in October. Actually, we are expecting ANOTHER precious baby girl. We are going to have 2 kids under 2!! Two LITTLE GIRLS under the age of two!! So crazy!
We have recently decided on a name, Emery. I love this name! I love having a name picked out for her already. I love calling her by name when I talk about her and pray for her. I love being able to talk about BOTH of my girls by their names, the ones that I KNOW God has chosen for them.
We found out back in February that we were pregnant and I was both thrilled and terrified. More often than not now, my feelings of excitement overshadow my feelings of fear. But…those afraid feelings come back at times.
I am going to be a mom to a 20 month old and a newborn. WHAT?!?!?!? How on earth do people do this??
How can I love 2 little girls as much as they need me to?
How can I take care of both of them all day all by myself while Brad is at work?
How can I meet both of their needs when they happen at the same time?
What will happen to my relationship with my precious Sadie, my firstborn, the one who made me a mama?
What will my relationship with Emery look like? I can’t focus on her like I focused on Sadie as a newborn because I’ll have a toddler to keep up with this time around.
What will Brad and I’s relationship look like with two kiddos to take care?
How am I going to be able to keep up with my active Sadie girl after multiple sleepless nights with Emery?
What’s going to happen to me? To the time that I need by myself in order to be the best mama I can be?The one that God has called me to be?
You guys, these fears are real, but God is showing me that its not okay to dwell on them. I have no idea what my future will look like, even tomorrow! But thank the Lord, HE DOES!!!! He has blessed me with another little angel because HE KNOWS that I can do it. He has equipped ME to do this very job.
No one in the entire world can do what I can do for these two little girls.
I know that there are rough and hard roads ahead. I also know that there are sweet and amazing and precious roads ahead. My God, the only God, is a great Father. He knows exactly what He has in store for me and my family. He has already mapped out the hard times that I’m going to have and HOW I’m going to grow stronger because of those times. (Jeremiah 29:11)
The Bible study I’m doing right now, Looking for Lovely by Annie F. Downs is already preparing my heart so much for what is coming. I know that God led me in this direction to help prepare me. He never promised that life would be easy. Only that He would never leave me to do it alone.
Without those hard days, my character wouldn’t develop, grow and strengthen in the way that it needs to. And so, I am choosing RIGHT NOW to REJOICE through those hard times. (Please remind me of this when I start to complain and whine). Those sleepless nights and exhausted days. I am going to look for the LOVELY right in front of me. The tiny little humans that God has given to ME. And I am going to love them for all that I’m worth!
I would love to hear from any other mamas of two kiddos-no matter their ages or the age difference between them. I would love to hear any encouragement that you have or advice on how you got through those tough days. Scripture, encouraging words, stories, anything like that! Also, if you have a blog post that goes along with this, leave that in the comments. I’d love to read about how other mama’s are doing it!! Please comment below…you never know who else you could reach and encourage with your words other than just me.