2 Kids Under 2

For those of you that don’t know, my amazing husband and I are expecting another child in October. Actually, we are expecting ANOTHER precious baby girl. We are going to have 2 kids under 2!! Two LITTLE GIRLS under the age of two!! So crazy!

We have recently decided on a name, Emery. I love this name! I love having a name picked out for her already. I love calling her by name when I talk about her and pray for her. I love being able to talk about BOTH of my girls by their names, the ones that I KNOW God has chosen for them.

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We found out back in February that we were pregnant and I was both thrilled and terrified. More often than not now, my feelings of excitement overshadow my feelings of fear. But…those afraid feelings come back at times.

I am going to be a mom to a 20 month old and a newborn. WHAT?!?!?!? How on earth do people do this??

How can I love 2 little girls as much as they need me to?

How can I take care of both of them all day all by myself while Brad is at work?

How can I meet both of their needs when they happen at the same time?

What will happen to my relationship with my precious Sadie, my firstborn, the one who made me a mama?

What will my relationship with Emery look like? I can’t focus on her like I focused on Sadie as a newborn because I’ll have a toddler to keep up with this time around.

What will Brad and I’s relationship look like with two kiddos to take care?

How am I going to be able to keep up with my active Sadie girl after multiple sleepless nights with Emery?

What’s going to happen to me? To the time that I need by myself in order to be the best mama I can be?The one that God has called me to be?

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You guys, these fears are real, but God is showing me that its not okay to dwell on them. I have no idea what my future will look like, even tomorrow! But thank the Lord, HE DOES!!!! He has blessed me with another little angel because HE KNOWS that I can do it. He has equipped ME to do this very job.

No one in the entire world can do what I can do for these two little girls.

I know that there are rough and hard roads ahead. I also know that there are sweet and amazing and precious roads ahead. My God, the only God, is a great Father. He knows exactly what He has in store for me and my family. He has already mapped out the hard times that I’m going to have and HOW I’m going to grow stronger because of those times. (Jeremiah 29:11)

The Bible study I’m doing right now, Looking for Lovely by Annie F. Downs is already preparing my heart so much for what is coming. I know that God led me in this direction to help prepare me. He never promised that life would be easy. Only that He would never leave me to do it alone.

Without those hard days, my character wouldn’t develop, grow and strengthen in the way that it needs to. And so, I am choosing RIGHT NOW to REJOICE through those hard times. (Please remind me of this when I start to complain and whine). Those sleepless nights and exhausted days. I am going to look for the LOVELY right in front of me. The tiny little humans that God has given to ME. And I am going to love them for all that I’m worth!

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Photo Credit: Melissa McCullough Photography I can’t wait to do a Mommy and Me session with BOTH of my girls next year!

 

I would love to hear from any other mamas of two kiddos-no matter their ages or the age difference between them. I would love to hear any encouragement that you have or advice on how you got through those tough days. Scripture, encouraging words, stories, anything like that! Also, if you have a blog post that goes along with this, leave that in the comments. I’d love to read about how other mama’s are doing it!! Please comment below…you never know who else you could reach and encourage with your words other than just me.

kylie

 

Real Talk: I’m a Quitter and I Hate It!

Hey everyone.

It’s been awhile. A long while actually. About 4 months to be exact.

I’m not really sure what happened but I just woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to write that day. And then…that feeling just kept happening. I kept telling myself that was okay. I didn’t have to write. I didn’t even have to blog any more. It was something fun but I just couldn’t focus anymore on posts to write so it was okay to just stop trying to quit. 

I’ve had several people ask me why I stopped blogging. I could never come up with an answer to that. But it made me feel really good to know that people noticed and people cared. People I never even knew were reading my blog. It made me want to start back up. But I didn’t. I continue to give myself reasons why I couldn’t write whenever it would come to mind. 

 

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the things I start and the things I stop and my reason why for all of it.

The other day I was looking in Lifeway for a new devotional. I came across one called Looking for Lovely by Annie F. Downs. I read the introduction of a devotional before deciding whether it is something I am going to buy or not. I want to know what the devotional has to offer. Well the introduction to this one really stuck with me.

She talks about how in many situations she is a quitter. That hit home!!! I feel like I have all of these interests but then after just a few short months… I give up. I quit. I make excuses why it was okay to quit. I’ve always kind of thought in the back of my mind that I was a quitter but I never had the courage to admit it. Until now.

I am a quitter and honestly I HATE that!

I HATE quitting. I HATE that I give up on myself and the things that I enjoy so often at the first hint of a struggle.

 

Looking for Lovely

I’m only three days into this journey of looking for the lovely but I’ve already learned so much. I’ve learned that without things being hard, without having struggles, my character can never fully develop. I won’t grow. I won’t become the person that God is calling me to be.

So today, I’ve decided to make some changes. I’ve decided to go back to some things that deep down are important to me. I’m picking them up and I’m deciding to NOT quit!!!

In order to help keep myself accountable I’m going to share with you the two things I’m picking back up and focusing on not quitting this time around.

 

  1. Blogging: I truly do love writing on here. It’s something that I enjoy and such a good outlet for me. I’m done making excuses of why I can’t come up with something to write. Because if any of you know me personally….you know that I ALWAYS have something that I want to talk about. 🙂
  2. Being active (at least 3-4 days a week) and Eating Better: Last August I started a round of the 21 Day Fix and LOVED it. I loved how it made me feel. I loved having the power over the foods I ate instead of feeling like food was controlling me. I loved the shape I was getting in physically and I loved what it was doing for me emotionally and even spiritually. At the beginning of February I kind of hurt my back so I took a couple weeks off and towards the end of that couple weeks, I found out I was pregnant. So there came yet another excuse of why I didn’t have to work out or eat healthy. Well….I’m done with those excuses. I want to have a healthy body for myself and for the baby that I’m growing inside of me. I want to be a great example to my girls on how to treat our bodies.

 

Here is my prayer for myself and for you.

Lord Jesus, I want to thank you for being a great God. Thank you for loving me enough to not let me keep quitting. Thank you for your grace and your patience as I have continued to come up with excuse after excuse in so many areas of my life.  I ask you today to keep the passions and desires that you have stirred in me recently alive and burning. I ask that you help me to dig into you when things start to get hard. I ask that you continue to have patience with me when I do fail, because I know that will happen. I ask that you help me to get back up on my feet during those times and to not let them keep me down. Thank you for guiding me to a devotional that speaks straight to me. Use this and your Word to guide me in the direction that YOU have called for my life. I also want to ask that use this post to reach anyone who might be feeling the same way about themselves. Light a fire under them and give them the courage to say NO to quitting. Thank you for being a great and loving God.

 

I love you. Amen