It’s been awhile. A long while actually. About 4 months to be exact.
I’m not really sure what happened but I just woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to write that day. And then…that feeling just kept happening. I kept telling myself that was okay. I didn’t have to write. I didn’t even have to blog any more. It was something fun but I just couldn’t focus anymore on posts to write so it was okay to just stop trying to quit.
I’ve had several people ask me why I stopped blogging. I could never come up with an answer to that. But it made me feel really good to know that people noticed and people cared. People I never even knew were reading my blog. It made me want to start back up. But I didn’t. I continue to give myself reasons why I couldn’t write whenever it would come to mind.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the things I start and the things I stop and my reason why for all of it.
The other day I was looking in Lifeway for a new devotional. I came across one called Looking for Lovely by Annie F. Downs. I read the introduction of a devotional before deciding whether it is something I am going to buy or not. I want to know what the devotional has to offer. Well the introduction to this one really stuck with me.
She talks about how in many situations she is a quitter. That hit home!!! I feel like I have all of these interests but then after just a few short months… I give up. I quit. I make excuses why it was okay to quit. I’ve always kind of thought in the back of my mind that I was a quitter but I never had the courage to admit it. Until now.
I am a quitter and honestly I HATE that!
I HATE quitting. I HATE that I give up on myself and the things that I enjoy so often at the first hint of a struggle.
I’m only three days into this journey of looking for the lovely but I’ve already learned so much. I’ve learned that without things being hard, without having struggles, my character can never fully develop. I won’t grow. I won’t become the person that God is calling me to be.
So today, I’ve decided to make some changes. I’ve decided to go back to some things that deep down are important to me. I’m picking them up and I’m deciding to NOT quit!!!
In order to help keep myself accountable I’m going to share with you the two things I’m picking back up and focusing on not quitting this time around.
- Blogging: I truly do love writing on here. It’s something that I enjoy and such a good outlet for me. I’m done making excuses of why I can’t come up with something to write. Because if any of you know me personally….you know that I ALWAYS have something that I want to talk about. 🙂
- Being active (at least 3-4 days a week) and Eating Better: Last August I started a round of the 21 Day Fix and LOVED it. I loved how it made me feel. I loved having the power over the foods I ate instead of feeling like food was controlling me. I loved the shape I was getting in physically and I loved what it was doing for me emotionally and even spiritually. At the beginning of February I kind of hurt my back so I took a couple weeks off and towards the end of that couple weeks, I found out I was pregnant. So there came yet another excuse of why I didn’t have to work out or eat healthy. Well….I’m done with those excuses. I want to have a healthy body for myself and for the baby that I’m growing inside of me. I want to be a great example to my girls on how to treat our bodies.
Here is my prayer for myself and for you.
Lord Jesus, I want to thank you for being a great God. Thank you for loving me enough to not let me keep quitting. Thank you for your grace and your patience as I have continued to come up with excuse after excuse in so many areas of my life. I ask you today to keep the passions and desires that you have stirred in me recently alive and burning. I ask that you help me to dig into you when things start to get hard. I ask that you continue to have patience with me when I do fail, because I know that will happen. I ask that you help me to get back up on my feet during those times and to not let them keep me down. Thank you for guiding me to a devotional that speaks straight to me. Use this and your Word to guide me in the direction that YOU have called for my life. I also want to ask that use this post to reach anyone who might be feeling the same way about themselves. Light a fire under them and give them the courage to say NO to quitting. Thank you for being a great and loving God.
I love you. Amen