On the Rough Days-Let’s Rise Above Our Emotions

Yesterday was a rough day. Neither of my girls were acting like themselves. Sadie woke up from her nap at 2:00 and that’s when it all started.

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Emery was wanting to eat every 1 1/2 -2 hrs and hardly sleeping but crying…or screaming…A LOT!

**She’s not normally like this at all! She’s a pretty happy baby with minimal crying. And when she does cry I can normally get her calmed down fairly quickly. Not today!

Sadie was whiny, and crying, and into EVERYTHING she wasn’t supposed to be.

**Poor thing had a very runny nose and I think her teeth were bothering her.

Brad was in training for the day and Tuesday trainings are the longest and he doesn’t get home until after the girls’ bedtime.

I yelled at Sadie, which I hate doing. I was frustrated with Emery because I didn’t know why she was crying or how to make it stop. I felt like I was going to lose my mind.

In the past, I would have let this completely melt me down and I would have started making bad decision after bad decision for myself. But instead, I packed up the girls and headed out. All I knew when we left was that we were going to get out of the house!! I think we all needed a break from it.

We ended up driving around and looking at some Christmas lights and then at Sonic. I got Sadie dinner there and myself a Diet Cherry Limeade. I was so tempted to get some ice cream but I have decided last week when I started back on the 21 Day Fix that I was only going to get one “treat” a week and I knew I didn’t want it on Tuesday. So I just stuck with a drink that still felt special. Then we headed to my grandma’s for a bit. It was nice to not be the only one in charge of them for a little while. My grandma rocked Emery when she started to fuss and my grandpa played with Sadie. I even got to run a quick errand while they watched the girls!

I’m not gonna lie…the rest of my evening didn’t get better when I got home. It was rough even after I put them down for bed for awhile. But what made the day still a good and successful day to me was the fact that I made good choices for myself all day. Instead of a glass of wine as soon as they were down for bed, I had 25 ounces of water first.

I use to use my emotions as an excuse to eat whatever I wanted. I’m sure there will still be times when I do. But I am a work in progress and I will celebrate my small successes and victories. And next time my day turns into mass chaos and I’m tempted to make bad decisions, I can look back and remember that I’ve risen above once before and I can do it again.

So can you dear friend! If you made a choice that isn’t the best for you, don’t let that defeat you. Recognize it and refuse to let the rest of your actions be based off that one decision. Rise above your emotions and refuse to let them control you and your eating choices. It’s pretty empowering when you stay on track with your goals and don’t cave. Find someone to help keep you accountable to what you really desire for yourself. I promise it will help 🙂

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Have a great day friends and rise above! 🙂

kylie

 

 

Update: Blog and Health/Fitness Journey

A little while ago now I wrote a post about how I tend to be a quitter. I start things and the moment they get hard, I give up. I stop trying. I don’t like feeling like I’m failing so I give up or sometimes I don’t even start things that I want to do because I just don’t know exactly how it’s gonna work out. But isn’t that what life is all about?…not knowing what tomorrow holds…giving it your all TODAY. I committed to keeping up with my health/fitness and my blog in that post (make sure to go check it out if you haven’t already). So here is a little update…

Blog:

I haven’t posted twice a week like I originally would have liked, BUT I also shared that I wanted to post when I felt like I had something to say and NOT just because I felt like I had to. That was what got me stopped for 4 months to begin with. So far, I have kept up with posting when I feel like there is something that I want to share. I have also kept up with keeping my Facebook page up to date. There are times that I don’t feel like writing an entire post but I do want to write a small something. So, if you don’t follow me on Facebook, you might want to check that out 🙂

I truly love this blog and the purpose behind why it was created (you can read about that here). I love getting to share with you and be real. I love going to read other people’s blogs and read about their lives-the beautiful and the messy. It helps me know that I’m not alone, and neither are you!

Health/Fitness:

Last July I was at the Iowa Balloon Festival in Indianola, IA. My father-in-law announces the different balloons and the whole experience is just so neat! This was Sadie’s first time seeing all of the different balloons and it was extremely hot but we were having a great time. We of course took pictures (I want to remember these things) and as I was looking back at some of the pictures I was very unhappy with how I looked and how I felt. I was 5 months postpartum and I felt like I was struggling. I follow a blog called Mommy’s Me Time. The post for that day was Amber’s story of why she started the 21 Day Fix. Her reasons fit me to a T. I felt like this could be my answer to feeling better about myself.

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Brad and I had a long discussion over what the 21 Day Fix was and would I really be committed to doing it. I agreed that it’s something I struggle with (notice this is a recurring thing for me) but I was desperate to just feel better about myself. He said if I committed to sticking with it for one whole round-which is only 21 days-then he was perfectly fine with spending the money. You guys, this was the BEST money I’ve spent in a long time!!

I kept up with the workouts until about mid-January when I hurt my back. I was giving it a break (because I didn’t want to push it and hurt myself worse) when I found out that I was pregnant. The morning sickness and overall feeling crappy that sometimes comes with the first trimester kept me from getting back into it. Once the second trimester rolled around I started some sort of workout routine for myself that included walking and swimming. Once this crazy hot weather showed up, the walking came to a halt but I have invested in the PiYo workout from Beachbody which is AMAZING for this pregnant lady!! The stretching is a good workout for me and is doing wonders for my ligaments and muscles that seem to be getting tight these days.

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My progress from the first day of starting the 21 Day Fix in August of 2015 to the beginning of January 2016.

The eating part is always the biggest struggle for me. I have a friend who is a Beachbody coach is truly inspiring! I love the encouragement she gives and how real and open she is. She’s not afraid to share the hard with you while encouraging you to push past it to see the beautiful that’s right around the corner. If you are wanting some encouragement as well, I’d highly recommend finding her on Facebook by searching for @mollymcginleyfitness. She has a virtual bootcamp that starts next Monday. I’m using this opportunity as an extra way to keep me accountable with my workouts and more specifically with my eating. I’m actually so excited that I have really started trying to make changes this week.

I have a long journey ahead of me but I know it’s going to be worth it!! I’m going to keep sharing my health and fitness story with you here and in smaller excerpts on my Facebook page. I’m determined to finish out this pregnancy strong for the health of Emery and myself and to have a jump start for my postpartum recovery. I really want to honor the body that God has given me. I want to be the best version of myself for God, myself, Brad and our kids. Honestly, I know this is going to be a game changer for me and I’m REFUSING to let anything stop me for good. I will continue to set goals for myself and I will continue to reach them.

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26 weeks pregnant and recommitting to drinking Shakeology daily and doing PiYo workouts every day. It’s already impacting myself and Sadie and that is HUGE to me!!

 

Make sure to keep checking in and see how my journey goes. Maybe you’ll decide to make some life changing decisions for yourself along the way. You never know how God can use something 🙂

Thank you for being people that I can be accountable too. Accountability is crucial for me and I’m so glad you are here on this journey with me! Have a great day friends!

 

kylie

Real Talk: I’m a Quitter and I Hate It!

Hey everyone.

It’s been awhile. A long while actually. About 4 months to be exact.

I’m not really sure what happened but I just woke up one day and decided I didn’t want to write that day. And then…that feeling just kept happening. I kept telling myself that was okay. I didn’t have to write. I didn’t even have to blog any more. It was something fun but I just couldn’t focus anymore on posts to write so it was okay to just stop trying to quit. 

I’ve had several people ask me why I stopped blogging. I could never come up with an answer to that. But it made me feel really good to know that people noticed and people cared. People I never even knew were reading my blog. It made me want to start back up. But I didn’t. I continue to give myself reasons why I couldn’t write whenever it would come to mind. 

 

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the things I start and the things I stop and my reason why for all of it.

The other day I was looking in Lifeway for a new devotional. I came across one called Looking for Lovely by Annie F. Downs. I read the introduction of a devotional before deciding whether it is something I am going to buy or not. I want to know what the devotional has to offer. Well the introduction to this one really stuck with me.

She talks about how in many situations she is a quitter. That hit home!!! I feel like I have all of these interests but then after just a few short months… I give up. I quit. I make excuses why it was okay to quit. I’ve always kind of thought in the back of my mind that I was a quitter but I never had the courage to admit it. Until now.

I am a quitter and honestly I HATE that!

I HATE quitting. I HATE that I give up on myself and the things that I enjoy so often at the first hint of a struggle.

 

Looking for Lovely

I’m only three days into this journey of looking for the lovely but I’ve already learned so much. I’ve learned that without things being hard, without having struggles, my character can never fully develop. I won’t grow. I won’t become the person that God is calling me to be.

So today, I’ve decided to make some changes. I’ve decided to go back to some things that deep down are important to me. I’m picking them up and I’m deciding to NOT quit!!!

In order to help keep myself accountable I’m going to share with you the two things I’m picking back up and focusing on not quitting this time around.

 

  1. Blogging: I truly do love writing on here. It’s something that I enjoy and such a good outlet for me. I’m done making excuses of why I can’t come up with something to write. Because if any of you know me personally….you know that I ALWAYS have something that I want to talk about. 🙂
  2. Being active (at least 3-4 days a week) and Eating Better: Last August I started a round of the 21 Day Fix and LOVED it. I loved how it made me feel. I loved having the power over the foods I ate instead of feeling like food was controlling me. I loved the shape I was getting in physically and I loved what it was doing for me emotionally and even spiritually. At the beginning of February I kind of hurt my back so I took a couple weeks off and towards the end of that couple weeks, I found out I was pregnant. So there came yet another excuse of why I didn’t have to work out or eat healthy. Well….I’m done with those excuses. I want to have a healthy body for myself and for the baby that I’m growing inside of me. I want to be a great example to my girls on how to treat our bodies.

 

Here is my prayer for myself and for you.

Lord Jesus, I want to thank you for being a great God. Thank you for loving me enough to not let me keep quitting. Thank you for your grace and your patience as I have continued to come up with excuse after excuse in so many areas of my life.  I ask you today to keep the passions and desires that you have stirred in me recently alive and burning. I ask that you help me to dig into you when things start to get hard. I ask that you continue to have patience with me when I do fail, because I know that will happen. I ask that you help me to get back up on my feet during those times and to not let them keep me down. Thank you for guiding me to a devotional that speaks straight to me. Use this and your Word to guide me in the direction that YOU have called for my life. I also want to ask that use this post to reach anyone who might be feeling the same way about themselves. Light a fire under them and give them the courage to say NO to quitting. Thank you for being a great and loving God.

 

I love you. Amen

Real Talk: Learning to Love Yourself

I am someone who goes to the store to buy everything! You name it, I’m probably getting it from the store. Sometimes I will get the urge to attempt to make something on my own (curtains, tomato sauce, homemade food for Sadie (instead of store bought), a craft, my own garden, etc.) The enemy almost immediately casts doubt upon my heart about myself. He lies and tells me that I can’t do it. I’m not good enough. I should leave it to my friends who are really great at that kind of thing. These thoughts push me to compare myself to my friends and I start to envy their talents and wish that I was different, better.

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I’ve got news for you friends, COMPARING IS A TERRIBLE THING!!!!! This will make you miserable and start to resent those around you that you are comparing yourself too. God didn’t make us someone else. He made us exactly as He wanted and that is PERFECT!

Psalms 139:13-14 says, “You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous-how well I know it.”

This is the verse that God brings back to my mind when I start to doubt myself. He created me, every part of me. I am His workmanship and I am MARVELOUS! He created each and every one of you. You are His workmanship and you are MARVELOUS! Oh the freedom we have to love ourselves when we can start to glimpse ourselves through the eyes of our loving Father.

So this year I have decided to start fighting against those lies. When I feel the urge to try something new, something different from my norm, I’m going for it! I’m going to hold onto that verse and that TRUTH and I am going to be exactly who God created me to be and no one else. I am going to talk with and get help from my wonderful friends who do excel in certain areas that I want to try out. God created them exactly as they are with the talents they have and I plan on picking their brains and getting some help as I continue to grow myself.

My first step in growing myself this year was starting this blog. You can read about my insecurities about that in this post. I am so glad I have started this and I find so much joy in being able to express myself in this way.

Another thing I have recently attempted was making my own mini pancakes for Sadie’s breakfast! It may not sound like much to you but it was a big step for me. I take the easy way out (which sometimes is not a bad thing and I in no way am judging anyone else who does this-I will again I’m sure of it!) and just buy her stuff from the store instead of venturing out and trying things myself. For me, this can be a bad thing. I choose to do this because I don’t want to challenge myself or I have negative thoughts about myself and I don’t push past them.

So the other week I laid Sadie down for her nap and decided I was going to do it. I was going to make her my OWN miniature pancakes. And I must admit, I think I rocked it! Haha I was very happy with the results and I definitely plan on doing that again and continuing to try different things when it comes to her food.

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My next “big” item that I want to challenge myself in this year is gardening. I want to grow green bell peppers, red bell peppers, zucchini and squash. These are the vegetables we eat the most often so that is what I want to attempt and challenge myself too. I can’t wait for the weather to warm up so I can get started on that! If you have any advice on how to start a garden or what not to do, I’d love to hear it!

What lies is the enemy telling you? What doubts is he casting upon you that make you believe you aren’t good enough to do something? I challenge you to stomp on those lies and hold fast to God’s truth and Psalms 139:13-14. I challenge you to find a lie you’ve been believing and prove to yourself that you are good enough! What adventure will you be taking? Will it be a garden, a new blog, a half marathon, a new job? There are so many things out there for us so let’s all start believing we can do this! Let’s go for it!

 

kylie